Wednesday, November 26, 2008

the day I never forgot (16.11.2008)


pg ni ak mek, anis n usni siap2 nk g kenduri k.an kwin tp ni belah lelaki..pas knduri usni tnye ak nk g jasin x..ak on je cz x tau lg ble ak leh g..asal nye aku nak tggu adik arwah balik,kteorg snggah solat kat masjid dulu sblm g ziarah pusara arwah..smp2 jea,ak mcm x percaye je ak dh ade n dpt tgok ngn mate kasar ak sendiri..pusara org yg ak penah syg n syg 2 masih ade lg. smp usni bace doa,pastu ak bce yasin 2“awk ri ni sy dtg melawat awk..smoge awk berada dlm rahmat n kasihnye sllu..-al-fatihah… berat kaki melangkah tok tggal kan awk tp sy harus akur n sedar ni semua ketentuan drNYA,sy harus tabah menerima semuanye..

sy ajk usni g umah awk..sy col awa suh bg tau mak yg sy nk datang..mak smbut kedatangan sy ngn bek skali,sy dtg2 je mak terus bwk sy masuk bilik..

“ni k kwn along yg dlm gmba 2 meh m.cik tunjuk”

sdy sgt time 2..mak kuakan semua gmba2 yg sy bg,semua awk simpan dgn baik lg kan..trus ak kate “x pe la m.cik simpan gmba 2 sgn sy”..

“m.cik sllu tgok gmba ni pas solat”
Ya Allah hiba sgt time ni DIA jet tau p yg ak rase..sy x dpt tahan awk,mengalir air mate ni..

Kteorg trus sembang kat dapur,awk time ni baru sy tau semuanye mak dh cte kat sy..sbnaye awk byk cte pasal sy kat mak..smp kan kte d x de pape pon die tau kan..sy kat sbah pon die tau..mak pon ade tnye ‘nape kwn ngn along x lame’ sy ckp “x tau la m.cik” maafkan sy slme ni sy byk salah sangka kat awk..awk ade ckp ngn mak “mak along rase x bole la ngn bela die org senang x same ngn kte adk bradik x ramai” nape awk pandang sy cm 2 skli..sy x de pape awk..sy x nilai awk dr semua 2.. mak ade ckp kat awk “along, yg senang mak ayah die bkn die” tp awk ttp ngn pendirian awk kan..baju melayu ijau 2 pon diorg tau sy yg bg, ayah n mak byk kali ckp awk suke pkai baju yg sy bg 2..mekaseh awk..

Sepanjang ak kat umah arwah air mate ni x henti2 mengalir..ak sdy sgt ble dh tau semuanye..cane pon ak lege sgt n bersyukur sgt2 berpeluang kenal ngn fmly arwah n g pusaranye..

Semoge dirimu ditempatkan dikalangan org2 yg beriman n sentiasa dlm rahmat n kasihNYA sllu…

Al – Fatihah buat arwah Muhammad b alias..ak sentiasa merinduimu..

mELaKa.....

ari ni ak dok umah..mlmnye ak gerak ngn anis g mlake..rindu sgt kat kwn ak yg sorang ni..dlm bus mcm2 cte x henti2 kte org sembang..tahan 2 mate sllu ak la org yg paling senag lena klu nek bus @ kete x kre la ape jnji jln x smp stngah jam ak dh lelap..smp sane usni amik die wat surprise kat anis konon x smp lg..anis siap ajak ak g mydin..heheh then kteorg g mkn kat tomyam klasik..x sangke ak dh kat melaka..ak rindu sgt klu la bole peluk mlake ni,hehe ak plok dah..byk sgt memory ka kat sini..

14.11.2008


ari ni last paper 4 final exam..lega sgt pas abis exam..hope ak leh skor paper ni,alhamdulillah ak leh jwb..blik sbok kms2 brg cz mlm ak balik semenanjung a rase lege sgt..x sba nk jmpe fmly n kwn2 ak rase cm lame sgt ak kat sbah..

mcm2 dugaan ak tempuh tok satu sem ni..ak hilang 2 org yg ak syg, 1st 2.9.08 die g dr hidup ak, die dh pon bertunang ak terpakse lepaskan die wlpn pahit. Mgkin jg sala ak terlalu mengharapkan cinte, Kdg2 ak x fhm nape kte susah sgt tok pertahankan hak yg kte ade hnye mgikut n ckp terpaksa..sdgkan dlm hidup ni kte ade hak tok memilih yg terbaik tok dr kte..tp ak pon x tau..so biala die dgn alasan 2..ak cube tok percaye 2nd arwah Muhammad b. alias, die telah pergi buat selama2nye…pd 21.10.08 bersamaan 21 Syawal 1429

alhamdulillah dengan izinnye ak boleh n tabah hadapi semuanye..kdg ak terfikir juga nape ak x boleh nk bahagia mcm org len..Tuhan tolonglah berilah ak kekuatan tok menghadapi semua ni..

mlm ni ak ak balik semenanjung, ak harap kat sini ak akn tenag, IAllah..flight ak kul 9.15,dlm flight ak x tdo lgsung tgol movie n sembang2 ngn jiha..smp2 fmly ak dh ade..rase lege ble dpt tgk mama ayah ak rase kuat sgt. alhamdulillah

Thursday, November 6, 2008

tak siape tahu..

5.11.08..ari ni sy dpt tau awk .........
mekaseh bg tau sy walaupun awk x bg tau sbb..mgkin 2 wat awk selesa b4 2 month sy tggu nape awk wat semua ni..awk x tau kan p yg sy rase,sakit sangat awk..sy x tau nk bg tau sape,sy simpan sorang2 n just bg tau kwn2..diorg pon leh bg semangat je kat sy..tp sy yg kena cr kekuatan 2 sndr..tq cz pnh hadir n epi kan sy,walaupun kebahagian yg DIA bg 2 sekejap sj,sy hargai..halalkan semua ape yg penah awk bg,mekaseh tok jam 2..sy pakai lg..

DIA lbh tau p yg terbek wat kte n DIa sllu ade ngn kte..pasni awk buang la sy dr hidup awk jauh2 tanam name sy bek2..sy sentiase dokan kebahgiaan awk..

awk pasni awk dh ade tggujwb yg baru..awk jg solat,jg diri,jg die bek2..sy rindu awk tp sy tau semua dh x mcm dulu

APA PON YANG TERJADI,
BERJALANLAH TANPA HENTI,
AIR MATA TERTAHAN,
WAKTU UNTUK DIJATUHKAN
NANTI KITE KAN TAHU BETAPA BIJAKNYA HIDUP,
SEPAHIT APAPUN INI,
PELAJARAN YANG BEERTI,
SEMOGA KEPERGIANMU TAKKAN MERUBAH APAPUN,
SEMOGE MAMPUKU LAWAN KESEPIANKU.........

THANKS..

Better In Time

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, No one?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I realized
That I really didn’t know.

If you didn’t notice
You mean everything (quickly I’m learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I will be OK.

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah (It’ll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve too
Oooh(It’ll all get better in time)

I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

If I’m dreaming
Don’t wanna to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that’s the past (I believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it

If you didn’t notice
Well you mean everything (quickly I’m learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I will be ok


Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah (It’ll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve too oooooh(It’ll all get better in time)


Since there’s no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I’ll be fine without you
Yes I Will


Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It’ll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I’m gonna smile cos I deserve too yes I do(It’ll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
yeah Ooooh oooooh (It’ll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
Going to smile cos I deserve too Ooooooh (It’ll all get better in time…..)